It was funny really. As I sat scrubbing puke off every article I had just gathered from his room, I could hear them moving equipment around and giving Kevin direction in the living room above me. No one even noticed I had left the room. All I could think was, they should get a camera down here because THIS is reality TV as I spend a good portion of every day in the laundry room scrubbing something off something.
What struck me about the whole thing was the fact that I wasn’t bothered by any of it. I have been looking forward to this show taping for weeks. I couldn’t wait to be part of the action and I really did enjoy being part of behind the scenes. But when it came time to suspend my TV fantasy moment and head back to my real role as mom, I did it not only without hesitation but without a single bit of resentment or anger. I’m not saying I deserve any credit for taking care of my kid above all else. That is what I should have done. But I would have expected me to have at least a pang of remorse that I was missing out on something big. I didn’t. I guess I’m growing up and have embraced the job of motherhood more than I knew. I guess I also found once and for all, who truly is the star of this show-and boy it ain’t me.
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